Thursday, September 28, 2006

Why do I feel this way?

Bloghopping today has left me feeling more sad and confused than relaxed and contented as I usually feel. Chanced on some audio blogs and could not help myself but admire at the amazing talent we have out there.
So, I should be happy that I got to listen to some amazing stuff, but why am I feeling depressed? Why am I feeling as if I have betrayed myself?
I am feeling I am in the wrong place! I should have been somewhere there too.... What am I doing with Java? I do not belong to the world of endless for-loops, countless if-else statements, unecessary customizations! oh God! what have I done to myself?
I should have been playing with swaras and thaalas. I should have been choreographing dance dramas!
Now when I look back, 15+ years of music and dance learnings have all gone down the drain! Why did I ever let it happen this way? The hands which were capable of playing raaga-thaana-pallavi on veena now can't even think of playing one full keerthane :(
Me, who could give 3 hour dance (Bharathanatyam) performances cannot even run for 30 minutes continously on the treadmill (yuck!! what a terrible comparison! Art to exercise!).
So what happened to the artist-me? She is lost. Lost in this mad mad world. I made a mistake. I should have never given it a "break", thinking that I could always get back to it!
I miss those days, when I used to get into a totally different world while playing Thyagaraja's compositions or Purandaradasa's devaranaamas endlessly on my veena. When I became Rukmini of Krishna on stage, or Sita of Raama or Shabari waiting for Raama, or Rukmini's mother helping her elope with Krishna ;-), or just a dancer emoting so many abhinayas on stage, dancing to the intricate choreography of my dance teacher. Damn! I miss it too much.
So should I just drop everything that I have and go after what I am "passionate" about? I wish I could do that! The problem is that I enjoy work too... I like being in this corporate world. I love my job. It's challenging, fruitful and nice.
So the big question still stays: "Am I in the right place?"

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Married women Vs. Dressing sense

What's with these married women? No, Seriously..? What happens to their dressing sense after marriage? Is it that you no longer have to impress anybody that you no longer care how you dress?
Yesterday I saw one woman in a desi store. Red Saree, a nice one at that. But... Wait, a green blouse to it! There was not even one dot of green anywhere in the saree. If it was just that, I would have left it there thinking she didn't exactly think about attire while coming for grocery shopping. But she wore a big blue earring and pink (a very bright one at that) lipstick. That shows she had actually put some effort in dressing up! But the result was bad to say the least.
Hello! Did you think that I am talking about some "aunt"? Nopes she was a young girl! In her 25 something.
If this was one off case then I would surely not bother writing a big blog about it and eat your head also... But NO, this is not a one off case.
I have my own aunts and cousins who are examples for this "AMD" (After Marriage Dressing) syndrome. They actually dress very nicely before marriage... But once the oath is taken gone are the good dresses and good accessories going with it.
I am not biased towards desi females. The so called well-dressed phirangi females are no better either... I thought wearing jeans above your waist with a belt and a straight cut was gone-with-the-wind kinds. But no, if you see anyone wearing jeans that way just stop her and ask her if she is married. You will not get a no for an answer.
I guess they also forget what is best to wear for their body structure. Tucking in the shirt when you have a large tummy is not exactly very appealing to the on-lookers eyes! Before anybody shouts at me for being insensitive and all that.. Please I am not saying everybody should and must have a hour glass figure! Please NO! I am just wondering why can't they wear appropriate clothes. That's all.
If they were like this from day one then fine, nothing more can be said about it. But if this happens only after marriage.. Then there must be some reason to it. Some reasons I can think of:
  • Once you find the man of your life, then that's it! No need to look nice to anybody else. I wonder though, is not required to look nice in front of the man of your life?
  • There is absolutely no time to think about dress and all... Give a break.. After all they are married... Marriage is a LOT of work.
  • I just don't care! Now that I am already married nobody will say " If you be like this, then nobody will marry you!" ;-)
  • There is more to life than appearance! - Though I feel that's the "first" thing anybody will notice about you.
  • Oh! My husband wants me to dress this way, he likes this combination so much you see. - What is he? Color blind?

That's all I can think of. Any more insightful comments are welcome specially from the married folk.

Surprisingly it's completely opposite with men! The "I care a damn" bachelor looks are replaced by nice fitting + clean + well-maintained clothes + clean shoes.

Wait a sec.. I think I got the answer, the wify is so busy taking care of her hubby that she forgets to take care of herself and keep up with the fashion trend of the day! That's it!. Period.

Thursday, September 21, 2006

My Latest Crush...


For all the ignorants like me.. he is Patrick Dempsey. I saw this picture by chance while reading this article. And MY! Is he HOT!!!
I almost skipped a heart beat when I first saw his picture. Isn't it amazing how some people attract you just by their looks.
If you (specially the girls) want to know more about him, you click right away
here!

P.S: Shah Rukh Khan is still number 1 on the list though!

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

Eloped? Get locked!

Gist of the Link: Boy loves girl. Elopes with her. Parents find him. Lock him up till he gets "better" (after all marrying a woman of your choice is a sin!). That's a "normal" story in India.
So what am I blogging about here?
  • One, in the above incident the poor guy was locked up for 15 years!! Can you imagine that? He spent 15 years of his formative life in a single room without a toilet!
  • His mother claims : He was acting insane after we separated him..hence we locked him up! - Quite a valid reason to lock up somebody huh?
  • She also claims that she cleaned the room everyday, but he never assaulted her - what was he to do? kill his own mother?
  • No charges have been framed against the parents, becasue they could not find any criminal motive behind it! - Isn't spoiling somebody's life criminal enough? Denying a person of basic rights isn't criminal?

So what if they are his parents? I do not deny the fact that parents do a lot for their children, and hence it's childrens' duty to listen to them and heed to their wishes. But isn't there a limit for everything. Also, even if he did not listen to them and brought them "dis-credit" by running away.. does that give them the right to do this way?

What did they acheive from this? They separated him from that girl because they thought that he would not be happy with her (whatever might be the reasons). Now did they keep him happy?

This is not just a one off incident. I had a friend whose mother used to beat her left and right if she even "looked" at other "guys". The "other" guys were sometimes her cousins in a function!

Are our children our "commodity"? Just becasue we gave birth to them, does it give us the right to do "whatever" with them?

When we have any trouble... we first go to our parents... but in these cases, the parents themselves are the trouble makers.. where do such children go for help?

Friday, September 15, 2006

I broke a NAIL

Yes :( It all started with bowling last Friday. My first ball.. And it slipped my hand and broke the nail on my right hand thumb. The nail came off with a bit of skin too! It hurt like hell! But all was forgotten while enjoying the game. I had 2 perfect strikes :D
(P.S: I don't do bowling very regularly so 2 is a big number for me in a game!).
Thought it would end there.. But do things EVER go as I think it would?
I broke another one, this time middle finger while lifting my laptop bag! These laptops can get very heavy sometimes.. specially if is made by one company named DELL :P.
Another down...
Today! Yes today another one... booohoooooo Index finger this time.. While I was drying my hair!
I have decided. Out they go... All 5 of them today! (K got it! Remaining 3 :( )My right hand is jinxed.
Che.. All this just when I had planned to attend a function tomorrow night and even bought a brand new nailpolish for it!!!!
Cruel fate!

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

Calvin - The ULTIMATE kid!


Doesn't HIS words sound perfect for today's situation? On one side with the advent of the so-called technology, we are spoiling the natural resources left and right! On the other hand every country that I know of is fighting with some other for some reason or other. I just hope as he says, the fighting will stop some day!!!!
God, Please let me have a son/daughter who thinks/acts just like Calvin... My life will be so very interesting...:D (Getting selfish huh? Well Yes! Anything... as long as I have a child like Calvin!).

Monday, September 11, 2006

Summers

This post is in reply to this!
Thank God! The summer is finally gone. Am I happy? Yayyyhhh!!!!!
  • Don't have to wake up with sweat in your hair and smelling awful.
  • Finally you can wear all those full-sleeved tops. Sleevless stuff is a lot of work! (Girls will appreciate this more.. I know)
  • Romantic mood in the air.... mmmmm P.... I miss you.
  • No need to bother about a few extra pounds here are there.. those long jackets will hide everything ;-)
  • Even if you don't take bath... since you don't sweat so much you won't stink so much! (This is against my principles though! This is just to add a reply to the above post.)
  • The city looks beautiful (read clean)!!!! - wherever you see it is white. White is pure.. White stands for peace.. White is beautiful (again read clean!)
  • Moisturisers are so much better and smell so nice than those stupid sun screen lotions.. which are sticky to say the least (yuckkk)
  • Headache, well... you get that even if you stand in the sun for long! Pee-breaks - Now you can tell "truthfully" that you could work only for 6 hours a day instead of the usual 8 hours..;-) due to "natural" reasons!!!!
  • Gym... There is always something called evening, if early morning is tough! And you feel nice and warm after a workout... as against sweaty, tired and miserable during summers!
  • Now how is eating connected with weather? As long as you cook at home.. and re-heat everytime you eat.. it's bliss... Ahhh Sambar/Rasam rice is best eaten when it's boiling hot.. imagine doing that in summer...!!!!

Welcome Winter... welcome welcome.. I have been waiting for you!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

What's the big deal?

With all the hungaama going on about making Vande Mataram compulsory in schools, I wonder... Does it really matter? Does singing a song "define" how patriotic we are? I do not deny that it's a great song, with lots of history behind it.
Vande Mataram, in it's true sense was not a song. It was a "feeling". All our freedom fighters sang it in one voice. Nobody (at that time) even bothered if they were Hindu, Christian, Muslim , Sikh... They sang it for it's "spirit". How come it did not hurt their religious sentiments then?
Ok, lets assume that at "that" time, the only thing in their mind was "freedom" and didn't really bother about the intricacies of a song. But NOW.. Things are different, people "think" a lot.. (the MEDIA definitely adds on to the thinking!). So now they feel the song is inappropriate for Muslim beliefs. So be it! Let them not sing it!
When will we ever grow up? Doesn't the government (read Mr.Arjun Singh) doesn't have any better work to do? Don't they realize that making anything "compulsory" makes everybody want to rebel against it? Why this now? Don't they have anything else to think about? What about poverty, unemployment, malnutrition, education (oh yes! They took care of it with 50% reservation ;-)), female infant killings, goondaism, smuggling, drugs... Oh forget it! The list is endless.. But only to me! All HE can think about is how to rake up a controversy! He is bent upon dividing us! He is the modern age Shakuni. Grrrrrrr
I don't think anybody has to prove their patriotism by singing a song! I studied in a convent, and everyday we used to sing songs praising Jesus, did it make me any less Indian?
Ha!Ha! We boast our heart out saying we are secular.. blah! blah! And then we "enforce" things... Widening the already existing gap between different sects of people! God help him! God help our country!
Vande Mataram!

- A proud, but a very sad Indian!

Thursday, August 31, 2006

The INDIAN Niagara...:) There you go!

Jog Falls is situated amidst dense forests of Western Ghats. She is river Sharavathi, making the falls spectacular to watch specially when she is flowing full. Raja , Roarer , Rocket and Rani are how the four different falls are called. River Sharavathi then moves on and joins the Arabian Sea at Honnavar. Feast your eyes with this vedio...

I have been to this place before :) College trip! What fun it was.... We trecked all the way down to the bottom of the falls in the wee hours of the morning. And then I slipped on a rock which had algae and fell.. broke my back! Or so I thought! I could not move a muscle... And remember we still had to treck back all the way up. My friends used the push-pull technology to somehow get me back up there. My friend N pushed me from behind and L pulled me from the front..and we made all the way like that. Went to a hospital and took an x-ray, thank God! it was just a muscle pull and I had not broken anything :) By the way, L was holding my hand when I fell... so he felt guilty all thru the trip that he let me fall down! He used to line-marofy me ;-) This L thingy is a saga in itself... I will write about it sometime when I get time.
For all you lucky guys out there in India, time to plan the next vacation?

P.S: Thanks to Pavan! He told me "how" to put this video on the blog :)

Monday, August 28, 2006

Tip Tip Barsaa Paani.....

YAYYYY!!!! It finally rained in this desert!
It started with severe lightning and thunderstorms yesterday afternoon. Out fire alarm started yelling... It's not used to this you know... It needs some burning HOT sun... Sudden lightning and thunderstorms are not acceptable... So it yelled, cried, screamed like a baby for a full 45 minutes!
My ears were gone for a toss after that. I tried in vain to stop it, but nopes! It just would not budge. It kept the fire department people busy for atleast 30 minutes before relenting!
That's all you can expect.. Now come on it's 105+ from the past 2 months and suddenly out of the blue it starts raining like that... Anybody will get scared and start crying... Yes! Including the fire alarm!
Today morning. Woke up for the first time in 4 months without sweat in my hair! I was infact feeling cozy and comfortable in my bed, thanks to a cool night :). The morning looked beautiful! My coffee actually became a little less warm when I stood in the balcony sipping it! Generally it becomes more hot ;-) That is at 7 in the morning!
Finally the umbrella which I had carried and come from India for emergency situations like this came into use ;-) Opened it and "stylishly" walked to the car holding it :D I felt so nice then... Though I feel stupid right now... ***blushes***...
My car was washed in the "car-wash" just last week. But then, some crows found it very attractive to put their "mark" on it just after the wash.. And so it was there all these 4 days.. But now after this rain.. Everything is gone! Actually now thinking back, the car looks much much cleaner now than after the car-wash thingy! Nothing to beat "natural-stuff" huh?
Was in full josh in office... Generally because of the excessive heat... It drains out all the energy in me.. And I feel so tired at office. But today.... I was so happy, cheerful, energetic.. Whatnot! I am amazed what a little shower can do to your day to day life....
So I know I am blabbering... But then I am happy... I am happy that it rained.. I am happy that I got drenched in the rain yesterday.. I am happy that I walked to office with an umbrella in hand... I am happy that I am happy...
Yes!Yes!Yes! It's still drizzling slightly.... God... Let this go on forever...:) Do I even need to mention that I love rains?

Thursday, August 24, 2006

The then Mahishapuri... The now Mysore.

One of my friends sent me this and I couldn't help smiling and agreeing with "each-and-every" sentence! Here it goes.

Mysore cannot be experienced in holidays or weekends. Like a creeper growing and encircling the staff, you have to live, and grow with Mysore to experience it. You have to be with the ajjis who have seen you from the time you were soooo small, where the maid who works in your house is your family maid, your ajji had "recruited" her mother.

Mysore is:
  • When you go on an evening walk, and the poojari of the Ram mandir, stops and chats with you, and moves on saying there is a pooja at 5 next morning.
  • When you walk a little ahead and the librarian says he has the latest copy of "Kasturi" or "Mayura".
  • When the milkman sees you on a walk, and delivers an extra half litre without being asked.
  • When you board a bus at the bus-stand and conductor-uncle gives you a ticket without asking.
  • When you collect little red 'gulganji' seeds on your way back home from KukkarahaLLi lake.
  • When you come by the Tippu express, and you find someone going in your direction to drop you off.
  • When elephants are marched in from the forests for Dussehra.
  • When you wait for your copy of "Star of Mysore". - That's an evening daily.
  • When the English movies are only at Rajkamal. Or Sterling.
  • When you look for your KEB uncle to book tickets at Woodlands.
  • When there are student body elections in Sarada-Vilas.
  • Mysore is the eternal SJCE-NIE feud.
  • When Jayciana is.
  • When you got your project report bound at Venkateshwara Binders in Saraswatipuram.
  • Having grape juice at RTO circle.
  • Buying vegetables at Agrahara.
  • Buying plantain leaves in NanjumaLige, savoring the aroma of the agarbatti factory behind.
  • Eating ice-creams at Penguin. - That was the first "all-icecream" joint in Mysore.
  • Eating dosa at Mylari Hotel.
  • Having biriyani early in the morning, near Philo's church.
  • Drinking sugarcane juice near kukkarahaLLI lake.
  • Munching corn-on-the-cob in the palace foreground.
Mysore is when I grew up in Mysore. My Mysore.
Mysore before :
  • GRS
  • Underbridge in front of Saraswatipuram Fire Brigade
  • Infosys
  • Ring-Road.
Those who grew up in that Mysore, will relate to me more than those who came to Mysore, to work for Infosys, or those who came to study, or those who think Mysore is a good place to invest, or those who think chilling out in Mysore is just CCD or Pizza Corner.

Oh, How they misunderstand my pretty home !!!

Found out now.. that the "original" author of this post is viky
He has commented here!

Thanks Viky! For transporting me back to nammooru...:) When I was reading this, I forgot that I was in Uncle Sam's Land..and was actually visualising each and every place you had mentioned there!

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

Yes! I have GREY MATTER... But it's a PAIN!

Whenever I used to complain to my mom about head ache, she used to say "don't worry, it will go in some time. Sleep for few minutes. By the way, if you have headache, it only proves that you have "head" and that's why it aches ;-)"


I now have a terrible head ache. This is bad, pathetic what not! It's been there from yesterday afternoon. It's complete 24 hours now and yet it has no idea of leaving my head. Somebody please tell me how to get rid of this?

Now that it's proven that I have a head... I don't want to prove it more... Please ache.. Please go!!!!!


I tried the below mentioned remedies- none worked, in case you are still wondering!



  • Had a HOT cup of STRONG coffee - This one has been tried and tested before, and it has 99% success rate!

  • Put 2 inches of Amruthanjan - The ad claims, the head ache will disappear in 5 mins. It's 24*60 minutes now. Still no clue of disappearing

  • Switched off my laptop (with great difficulty) and just stood in the balcony for the whole of the evening! - Texas is HOT! So it was not exactly very pleasant outside. But still endured it to prevent myself from going anywhere near my laptop or the Idiot Box (read TV)

  • Had hot water - first drank some, and then took bath also!

  • I generally wear glasses while working on the computer. But yesterday I wore it even while in a meeting - Thought the headache was because of eye-strain

  • Haven't listened to music for full 24 hours - This is the toughest part. But yes! I tried that as well

  • Took an advil - I am generally against taking medicines for small things. But this time it was unbearable, so at the 21st hour, took it. But it's full 3 hours after that and still the head ache is ON




  • Somebody please tell me.. Apart from cutting off my head, is there any other way to get rid of this pain! Innovative ideas that will make my life more interesting are welcome ;-)

    Friday, August 18, 2006

    The BIG challenge

    I don't know what's got into P. He has vowed that he will not speak to me for 15 days!
    Why? Don't ask me... I have absolutely no idea. When I asked him what got to him? He said "He just wants to "test" how long he can stay without talking to me.

    So today is Day 0.

    It kinda feels very weird.. I am used to talking to him atleast 3 times a day.. Not long calls, just 5 mins each time. Sometimes he calls, and sometime I call. He has asked me not to call him over the weekend also...

    A few reasons (based on the history), for him to stop talking to me. (None of them have lasted more than a few hours though):
    • When we have a fight - Now that's quite obvious.
    • When there is a India-Pakisthan cricket match being telecast live! - Absolutely "nobody" is supposed to talk to him during this time. And yes! This silence lasts for a full day - That's the longest!
    • When he has quarelled with his mother or sisters... and I support "them" instead of him.
    • When he is extremely upset with his friend A. - Don't ask me why he stops talking to "me" at such situations.. but he does that anyways.
    • When either me or him are on-travel overseas.
    • And ofcourse when he sleeps! - Nothing can disturb him, my phone calls are blissfully ignored.
    In the present scenario, none of the above condition holds good... so why this naatak?

    I HATE THIS!

    Monday, August 14, 2006

    God Bless America... and India more than that please....

    "Indian" Independence day celebrations in America.
    • Independence day March - American Flags held in hand with Indian Tri-Color as Shoulder belts.
    • The march band - Not sure what they played, but were all some american numbers. That much I could make out. (They confirmed that later on while thanking the school band!)
    • Shouting - Jai Hind, Vande Mataram , Azaadi Amarrahe and God Bless America all at the same time!
    • The stalls - All "supposedly" authentic Indian stuff. The prices were well.........! If I ever loose my job, I am going to join this "business".. ;-). Buy something in India for 100 odd rupees and sell it here as "desi stuff" for atleast $30!
    • Newly weds - clung together like they have been "joined" by fevicol. I wonder what's with desi couples in videsi envi... too much physical love for display! I can understand if it was some romantic place or something remotely close to that... but come on.. it's Independence Day celebrations remember? It's a big ground with some stalls around. I wonder what's romantic in that?
    • Rows and rows of food stalls :-). No surprises in that. Indians are fond of food like ants are fond of sugar :-). So there is Gujju, Punjabi, Mumbai, Gulti, Mallu, you-name-it kind of food. We are celebrating world food day.. in case you are asking :P
    • National Anthem - Sung by a female in a "raaga" of her own. I always thought you are not supposed to add any "beautification" stuff to the national anthem! It's not to display your singing skills. There are other songs for that.

    Anyway, even with all these.. it was a wonderful evening. Saturday evening (the pre-poned Independence Day celebrations!)

    The best part was concert by some sa-re-ga-ma-pa singers. Though nothing fantastic, it was good.

    The grand finale was fireworks. I will upload the video of it soon :)

    HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY FOLKS!

    Update:







    We the people shall celebrate the anniverseries of these momentous events, which occur in 2007. What the governments seem to be ignoring, we shall celebrate in our own way.

    Please copy the image above and put it in your own blog, along with this request.

    Source: Jag's Blog

    Friday, August 11, 2006

    We are being ruled by MORONS!

    Yes. This is exactly what I felt after reading this article!

    The gist of the artcile, if you are too lazy to read the whole thing! (Frankly speaking these days I am more happy reading movie reviews than these news items. It makes me feel irritated seeing the sorry state of affairs!)

    US embassy : Warned India of terror attacks by foreign terrorists - possibly the al-Qaeda - between Aug 11 and Aug 16.

    Our Reaction (wah! wah!)
    • Mr. V. K Duggal (Home Secretary): When we receive inputs, we will sensitize our state government and our police force as they go about making security arrangements based on the information provided. It's a very innocous advisory and that's just about it. In other words, promptly dismissing the "warning" as something "unlikely to harm or diturb anyone"!!! I wonder which part of the world does he live in? Has even heard of 7/11?
    • Mr. Sriprakash Jaiswal (Minister of State, Home): Till now my ministry has not received any reactions and in fact as the advisory has come from abroad, it must have come to the MEA. If informed we will take all the appropriate steps. Wow! How cool is that! I mean these poeple are heroes man! They are not scared of anything! Wow! Hats off to their bravery! When it comes we will see attitude... when? after another 300 people are dead?
    • Indian authorities have put major airports on red alert: Fantastic measure! Do they think that these terrorists are also morons like them to fly to India, just 1 day before they bomb the country! **Clap** Clap**. I am not saying that airports should not be on alert.. but boss! that is not a big thing that they have done and definitely not enough!
    • Mr. A N Roy (Mumbai Police Commissioner): There is no need to panic. In case you come across any suspicious person or object, inform the police immediately.

    The last one was super! I mean, terrorists attacks are not child plays. We have seen the samples of them! Be it 9/11 or 7/11 or everyday what's happening in Kashmir. And we are NOT "supposed" to panic? What then? Sit and wait for "anything" to happen?

    And a normal Indian's day: Meet hazar people, busses, trains, road, theators wherever! And If I see anything suspicious report... What If I fail to notice the suspicious thing? What if it does not look suspicious?

    Only GOD can help us! Each one of us have to be careful if the so called "protectors" are not doing their jobs. I am not saying that we should live with fear every single day. But just be cautious of your surroundings.

    I also understand that it is not a cake walk to the intelligence agencies to find out who is plotting what plan and how to counteract it. I am just disgussted about the attitude of these people!

    I want to see if they will talk the same if all the Z-security for them is revoked!

    Monday, August 07, 2006

    Hey! Nincompoop - will you EVER learn?

    I will NEVER learn! I have been in this kind of situation a hundred times before.. but still!!! As some people say "Naayi baala donku" (You can never straighten a dog's tail!).
    I can't say "NO" to people on their face. Be it official or personal. I always end up taking too much of work on my head in office, becasue some person will have some commitments and has to go early... but I cancel all my own plans and do his/her work as well! wah! shark wah!
    Yesterday evening 7pm. One girl in my appartment block calls me and asks if she can stay with me for 2 months? And great old me says YES even without batting my eyelid.
    She shifted all her stuff today... and believe me there is LOTS!!!!
    Now I am regretting it. I can't share my room with one more person. I need some privacy!
    Can somebody tell me how to kick myself?

    Friday, August 04, 2006

    The switch for my electric blanket is with somebody else...

    Frankly speaking I do not know what to write about P. Should I write about him as a person all by himself? Or should I write about him as Mr.Shark? ;-)


    P is very reserved to the outside world.. kind of keeps to himself unlike me who has some million friends and can talk even with a wall!!! He takes a LOT of time to come out of the "formality" mode and speak with people casually. So there it goes... our first difference :)


    P shows his emotions right on the face. He CANNOT lie. This is good for me since I can always catch if he is lying to me about something... but bad for him because he can never hide anything from anybody ;-) Just by listening to his "hello" you can make out if he is happy or sad or not-so-ok or hungry (yes! you can make out that as well...) And all this is just listening to his "hello" over the phone... so you can imagine if he is right in front of you... you can even make out what he had for lunch ;-). This is difference number 2! I NEVER show my emotions on my face... I might be all gloomy and sad... but then I talk to people around me as if I am the most happiest person on earth! I rarely share my feelings with anybody.. sort of inside-myself kinds!


    For P.., I am the most important person in his life. (Many people will be jealous of me.. I know ;-)). He will leave anything and come and meet me if I ask him to. This reminds me of an incident.
    I was studying engineering at that time... and my semester exams were on. It was the last day of the exam.., It was a tradition of sorts for P to come and wish me for each exam personally. It so happened on this particular day he had to go out of town for some work. He had called me and wished me... But then, just as I was going to college, there he was! In the usual place.. standing and waiting for me.... He had driven some distance of 60kms inbetween his work... just so that he can come and wish me for the exam. He went back to work after that!!!!! P.., I fell in love with you all over again on that day... :)


    Truly speaking I am not at all like that. For me also though P is the most important person in my life.. I am too practical!! I let my mind rule more than my heart! So there it goes another difference!





    But then, even with all these differences, I have never felt that close to anybody else other than P. Yes! I am sort of a boring character.. I didn't even have a crush on anybody else before P!!!



    Infact I was not even interested to get married... I had seen too many troubled marraiges around me.. and somehow that had left me not to beleive in the institution of marraige and all this "mooha".





    But then, the entry of P changed everything. No! It was not love at first sight! (Though, P claims it was for him.. but I don't believe him..;-)). He was first my "teacher". Yes! whatever little programming I know today, it's all because of him.. :). Then he was my friend.. and then he became my boy-friend. It has been a beautiful journey... :)





    Some of the things that I like about P..,
    • He is always straight forward. He tells what he feels. He does not think one thing and tell another thing!
    • He is very caring, not only with me.. but even with his friends and family, Goes out of the way to help people around him.
    • He does not care about money! I hate people who think 100 times before spending even 100rs. But he is not like that... and I love that! After all what is the use of money you have, if you can't spend it!
    • He is smart... I mean the way he talks, the way he presents himself... man I love him for that!
    • He is clean :D Yes! That had to be a major criteria for me :) He is extremely cautious about his clothes.. (just like me).. irons them neatly each and every day he wears them. Goes to office, very well dressed! I hate men who don't care about their attire.. and don't even bother to take bath to go outside leave alone ironing clothes!
    • He is extremely sensitive towards my feelings. He is the ONLY person who can make out how I am feeling inside... though I might be just the opposite on the outside.
    • And most important... man! is he a good listener... with me, who can talk on and on about anything and everything, you need a real good listener as a partner..! And he is more than what i asked for :D

    Some of the things which I would have loved if he ..,

    • I wish, he could stand Shah Rukh Khan! It's a big effort to make him agree to go for a SRK movie with me... (I strongly feel this has more to do with Jealousy rather than hatred for SRK.. but till now he has not confessed!)
    • I wish, he could learn to talk in Tamizh.. :)
    • I wish, one day he owns a mercedes benz... :D
    • I wish, he controls his temper atleast a little bit... is he short tempered? don't ask!
    • I wish, he hadn't had 7 girl friends before me!!! :(((( (Now, it's another matter that those were all those school-crushes kinds... and never went beyond buying an icecream in the evening types... but still....!!!!!)

    P.., THANK YOU... :)

    • For making my life so beautiful.
    • For everything you have done for me.. and for us.
    • For making me feel so special when I am with you.
    • For being just YOU

    So, finally... this is what I have learned from being with P all these 6.5 years!!! yes! it's been a long time.. but a beautiful journey!.

    Love doesn't make the world go 'round. Love is what makes the ride
    worthwhile.
    ~ Franklin P. Jones

    Wednesday, August 02, 2006

    I love this man... If only everybody thought this way!


    Ladies are gonna love Indian men for thinking this way!!! Really worth the read...

    It seems that an article was written to a well-founded magazine, by an English woman who requested a response from Indian men. She got what she asked for (and more)!!!

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    This letter was written in response to an article:

    Dear Editor:

    I'm sorry but I would like to challenge some of your Indian male readers. I am a White female who is engaged to an Indian male, good-looking, educated and loving. I just don't understand a lot of Indian female's attitudes about our relationship.

    My man decided he wanted me because the pickings amongst Indian women were slim to none. As he said they were either too fat, too loud, too mean, too argumentative, too needy, too materialistic or carrying too much excess baggage. Before I became engaged, whenever I went out I was constantly approached by Indian men, willing to wine and dine me and give me the world If Indian women are so up in arms about us being with their men, why don't they look at themselves and make some changes.

    I am tired of the dirty looks I get and snide remarks when we're out in public.

    I would like to hear from some Indian men about why we white women are so appealing and coveted by them. Bryant Gumbel just left his wife of 26 years for one of us. Charles Barkley, Scottie Pippen, the model Tyson Beckford, Montell Williams, Quincy Jones, James Earl Jones, Harry Belafonte, Sydney Poitier, Kofi Anan, Cuba Gooding Jr., Don Cornelius, Berry Gordy, BillyBlanks, Larry Fishburne, Wesley Snipes...I could go on and on. But, right now, I'm a little angry and that is why I wrote this so hurriedly.

    Don't be mad with us White women because so many of your men want us. Get your acts together and learn from us and we may lead you to treat your men better. If I'm wrong, Indian men, let me know.

    Disgusted White Girl,
    Somewhere in VA.

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    The Response:

    Dear Editor:

    I would like to respond to the letter written by A Disgusted White Girl.

    Let me start by saying that I am a 28-year old Indian man. I graduated from one of the most prestigious universities in Atlanta, Georgia with a Bachelor of Arts Degree in Business Management. I have a good job at a major corporation and have recently purchased a house. So, I consider myself to be among the ranks of successful Non-White men.

    I will not use my precious time to slander white people. I just want to set the record straight of why Indian men date white women.

    Back in the day, one of the biggest reasons why Indian men dated white women was because they were considered easy. The Indian girls in my neighborhood were raised traditionally.

    Nowadays, in my opinion, a lot of Indian males date white women because they are docile and easy to control. A lot of Indian men, because of insecurities, fears, and overall weaknesses, have become intimidated by the strength of our Indian women. We are afraid that our woman will be more successful than us, make more money than us, drive nicer cars and own bigger houses. Because of this fear, many Indian men look for a more docile woman. Someone we can control. I have talked to numerous Indian men and they continuously comment on how easy it is to control and walk over their white women.

    I just want to set the record straight. I want A Disgusted White Girl to know that not all successful Indian men date white women. Non-Whites like Ahmad Rashad, Denzel Washington, Michael Jordan, Morris Chestn! ut, Will Smith, Blair Underwood, Kenneth 'Babyface' Edmonds, Samuel L. Jackson, and Chris Rock all married strong Non-White women. And, to flip the script, there are numerous white men, in and out of the spot light, who openly or secretly desire Non-White women over white women. Ted Danson, Robert DeNiro, and David Bowie to name a few. I just don't want the 'Disgusted White Girl' to be misinformed.

    Stop thinking that because you are white that you are some type of goddess. Remember, when Non-White Egyptian Queens like Hatsepshut and Nitorcris were ruling Dynasties and armies of men in Egypt, you were over in the caves of Europe eating raw meat and beating each other over the head with clubs. Read your history! It was the Non-White woman that taught you how to cook and season your food. It was the Non-White woman that taught you how to raise your children. It was Non-White women who were breastfeeding and raising your babies during slavery. It is the Non-White woman that had to endure watching their fathers, husbands, and children beaten, killed, and thrown in jail.

    Indian women were born with two strikes against them: being Non-White and being a woman. And, through all this, Still They Rise!

    It is because of the Indian women's strength, elegance, power, love and beauty that I could never date anyone except my Indian Queen. It is not just the outer beauty that captivates and draws me to them. It is not the fact that they come in all shapes, sizes, colours and shades that I love them. Their inner beauty is what I find most appealing about Indian women. Their strong spirit, loving and nurturing souls, their integrity, their ability to overcome great obstacles, their willingness to stand for what they believe in, and their determination to succeed and reach their highest potential while enduring great pain and suffering is why I have fallen in love with Indian women.

    I honestly believe that your anger is geared more toward jealousy and envy than snotty looks. If this were not so, then why do you continuously go to tanning salons to darken your skin. If you are so proud to be white, then why don't you just be happy with your pale skin? Why do you continue to inject your lips, hips, with unnatural and dangerous substances so you can look fuller and more voluptuous? I think that your anger is really a result of you wanting to have what the Non-White woman has.

    BOTTOM LINE: If I were looking for a docile woman, someone I can walk over and control, I would give you a call. But, unfortunately, I am looking for a Virtuous Woman. Someone that can be a good wife and mother to my children. Someone who can be my best friend and understand my struggles. I am looking for a sou l mate and; unfortunately, you do not and CANNOT fit the bill.

    No offense taken, none given.

    Signed,

    Indian Royalty.

    Sunday, July 30, 2006

    Long Time Pending Snaps - Part 1

    Here are the photos which were long time pending.... :)



    A guitar performance in San-Antonio River Walk



    A 300 year old tree :) wow! It does look green and young.. wonder what's it's secret!



    The tower of San Antonio



    That's the river walk at night! Isn't that beautiful?

    More pictures on it's way... keep watching this space :)

    Wednesday, July 26, 2006

    Realisation - At Last!


    I have realised that ...

    1. The Lonelier you feel, lonelier the world makes you feel.
    2. Words had hurt me more than the wounds I had suffered in life.
    3. When you have nothing to lose, you show your true character.
    4. No matter how many times I pray, I only get what I rightfully deserve.
    5. When I am estatic about something, there are never enough people to share it with.
    6. You can't have happiness, unless you are already happy.
    7. If you make decisions with your heart, you are bound to regret them later in your life...
    8. Kids are never at fault, they just mirror our faults.
    9. Every relationship has an expiry date.
    10. I am better when I am silent!
    11. Tears convey more than what words can ever say.
    12. ................................